All the time I think about that. I know for sure that I'm in love with him. Should I wait? Isn't waiting sort of in vain, since he may never come back? All of my friends keep telling me to move on and let go, but I can't. What we had was something amazing. Our love was stronger and deeper than anyone else that I know.
Then, one day, he just left. There are so many reasons why. At least so many excuses I keep making for him. I look back and read the letters he wrote me. They say that he will never leave me. He makes promises that we will be together forever. Yet, he threw all of it away. Why?
I know that guys never know what they want, but I was positive he wanted me. He asked me to marry him. I know that he was serious about us. But now, we don't even talk.
His family hates me, and now my family is beginning to hate him as they see that my life is in shambles. My heart is completely broken. I don't think that I will ever be able to be completely happy again. I used to say that he was my first and last love. Now I know that that is the truth.
I don't even want to pick up the pieces of my heart. I don't ever want to be with someone else who will hurt me like he has. My heart literally aches for him. I miss being in his arms and his whispers of "I love you" in my ear. I miss finally being cared about by someone. Most of all, I miss actually looking forward to my future. I don't even want a future now.
Im sure that you think that I'm being overly dramatic about this, but I'm not. I have known for years that he is my soulmate. That is why I cannot simply move on and meet another guy. It seems strange to hear from someone as young as me that I have met my soulmate, but I know for sure that I have. Nothing will ever make me change my mind about that. I love him with all of my heart. When I see him in the hall at school, my heart jumps and I pray silently to myself that he looks over and sees me. He usually doesn't. I even hope that his car is coming down the road every time I see a car that looks like his. I try to tell myself that he is coming to apologize and tell me he wants me back. I psych myself out and get my hopes up. It's never him.
1) "How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?"
2)"You taught me how to love; you taught me how to live; you taught me how to laugh; you taught me how to cry, but when you left, you forgot to teach me how to forget you."
3) "I was finally getting over you and actually believing I didn't need you. I was finally accepting you had another girl. Then you smiled at me and ruined it all."
4) "A million words wouldn't bring you back. I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears. I know because I've cried."
5) "They say that if you love someone you should let them go, but they never say what to do when they don't come back."
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